[Reading] ➶ This Is How I Lied ➬ Heather Gudenkauf – Thomashillier.co.uk

This Is How I Lied Gudenkauf Proves Herself The Master Of The Smart, Suspenseful Small Town Thriller That Gets Right Under Your Skin Gilly Macmillan, New York Times Bestselling Author Of The Nanny Everyone Has A Secret They Ll Do Anything To Hide Twenty Five Years Ago, The Body Of Sixteen Year Old Eve Knox Was Found In The Caves Near Her Home In Small Town Grotto, Iowa Discovered By Her Best Friend, Maggie, And Her Sister, Nola There Were A Handful Of Suspects, Including Her Boyfriend, Nick, But Without Sufficient Evidence The Case Ultimately Went ColdFor Decades Maggie Was Haunted By Eve S Death And That Horrible Night Now A Detective In Grotto, And Seven Months Pregnant, She Is Thrust Back Into The Past When A New Piece Of Evidence Surfaces And The Case Is Reopened As Maggie Investigates And Reexamines The Clues, Secrets About What Really Happened Begin To Emerge But Someone In Town Knows Than They Re Letting On, And They Ll Stop At Nothing To Keep The Truth Buried DeepCheck Out These Other Riveting Novels Of Suspense By Bestselling Author Heather Gudenkauf The Weight Of SilenceThese Things HiddenOne Breath AwayLittle MerciesMissing PiecesNot A SoundBefore She Was Found


10 thoughts on “This Is How I Lied

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    Ladies and gentleman, we have another WINNER As soon as I saw Heather Gudenkauf s name, I requested this book without reading its blurb, because Before She was found was one of my last year s favorite, underrated books and I believe her new book will be also another surprising, twisting, heart throbbing, gripping thriller And yes, I don t have to be clairvoyant to know I ll get something fresh, mind numbing, well written with impeccably crafted, complex characters It is already at my top ten Ladies and gentleman, we have another WINNER As soon as I saw Heather Gudenkauf s name, I requested this book without reading its blurb, because Before She was found was one of my last year s favorite, underrated books and I believe her new book will be also another surprising, twisting, heart throbbing, gripping thriller And yes, I don t have to be clairvoyant to know I ll get something fresh, mind numbing, well written with impeccably crafted, complex characters It is already at my top ten favorite thrillers list of this year.The story is told by 3 narrators Officer Maggie Kennedy O keefe, investigating a 25 years old cold case her best friend Eve Knox s brutal murder A woman officer investigates the brutal murder when she is expecting gives us Frances McDormand s Marge Gunderson vibes from Fargo Eve Knox, victim, 15 years old, is living her sister Nola who is showing sociopathic tendencies and her hard working, strict mother We re going back and forth between her murder day and present time to catch the parts of her story and getting a clue about whodunit These parts are heart wrenching because Eve also suffers from abuses of her boyfriend Nick, dealing with family problems and her best friend Maggie gives her cold shoulder who seems like keeping a terrible secret from her From the beginning till the end, Eve s story confuses our minds and gives so many perpetrator candidates, pointing fingers to the different people.And Nola describing her as weird could be wrong because her animal dissecting practices, hoarding tendencies and transcriptions of her s ances with her psychiatrist tells us she could be twin sister of Dexter And when we go back and forth between past and present we see that her mother might have lied about her whereabouts at the murder time She is the most irritating, disturbing character of the book From the beginning you get suspicious about motives and she can easily surprise us with her unexpected actions.The case is reopened after a new piece of evidence victim s shoe is found by little kid Now forensics technology improved and DNA results could help them to get better results Maggie is 7 months pregnant This is her miracle child because she and her husband Shaun tried too many times to be parents and now they have to becautious Maggie needs to stay away from stressful situations But when the case reopens, she also knows she already reopened the can of worms because there are so many secret will be resurfaced Her father Henry who was also police officer conducted the investigation 25 years ago but he didn t find a suspect Now he suffers from amnesia and he forgets what you tell him a few minutes later But Maggie thinks her father keeps to himself something secret about the investigation Something deadly crucial and important.Maggie also keeps secrets that can change everything about the case and her own life She already gets death threats and somebody put their barn into the fire to give her a message If she shares with her husband, it can destroy their marriage but she finds out, her husband was also friend of Eve and he was one of the last persons who has seen her before getting killed Why Shaun didn t mention it to his wife So who killed Eve Knox At the last third The author throws a bomb into our laps A shocking revelation And after this revelation, you start to read action packed, heart pounding, blood freezing, high tension last quarter while you re sitting at the edge of your couch and getting sick of biting your nails and starting to bite your couch pillows and your mouth keeps getting filled with feathers.Overall Pacing, story development, characterization are perfect I couldn t put it down and turn into home quarantined couch potato and I never regretted It was one of my best reads of the year Special thanks to NetGalley and HARLEQUIN Park Row for sharing this powerful ARC in exchange my honest review And special thanks to Heather Gudenkauf for writing this remarkable, moving, gripping novel


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    Heather Gudenkauf joined us in The Behind the Pages group for Spoiler free Q A to talk about her books and her writing process To see what Heather has to say you can find the Q A here to ask Heather a question or leave her a commenthttps www.goodreads.com topic show My review This Is How I Lied has a little something different here with the creep level to the story and Heather Gudenkauf had me a little worried as she created a sense of dread for me like I haven t felt before while read Heather Gudenkauf joined us in The Behind the Pages group for Spoiler free Q A to talk about her books and her writing process To see what Heather has to say you can find the Q A here to ask Heather a question or leave her a commenthttps www.goodreads.com topic show My review This Is How I Lied has a little something different here with the creep level to the story and Heather Gudenkauf had me a little worried as she created a sense of dread for me like I haven t felt before while reading I enjoyed that feeling of not knowing what to expect with that sense of dread I put my trust in her and was rewarded with a chilling, dark and twisty entertaining read.For me, this one was all about Nola She is one odd, dark character with an interesting creepy side to her She has an exciting, mysterious side to her that created some great tension and suspense to the story that had me turning those pages as fast as I could She brought something a little different to the story and she was a character we wanted to talk about.The crime here centers around the murder of Eve, Nola s sister and her best friend, Maggie Well, things didn t really add up the way I would have liked them to, I loved the dynamics between Nola and Maggie Maggie also brings something a little different here with the tension in the story with her pregnancy and I feared the danger she might be in I enjoyed how things came together with Nola and Maggie and thought it all wrapped well I recommend it I received a copy from the publisher for a blog tour on NetGalley


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    3.5 stars rounded up This is how I lied, and this is my truth.In 1995, 15 year old, Eve Knox was murdered, her body left in a cave.When she didn t arrive home that night, her Mom panicked, it was so unlike Eve and a frantic search began.Her best friend, Maggie, teams up with Eve s little sister, Nola, and they ultimately end up finding her body that very night.Neither girl will ever forget those horrific events.Twenty five years later, Maggie, has followed in her Father s footsteps and is now 3.5 stars rounded up This is how I lied, and this is my truth.In 1995, 15 year old, Eve Knox was murdered, her body left in a cave.When she didn t arrive home that night, her Mom panicked, it was so unlike Eve and a frantic search began.Her best friend, Maggie, teams up with Eve s little sister, Nola, and they ultimately end up finding her body that very night.Neither girl will ever forget those horrific events.Twenty five years later, Maggie, has followed in her Father s footsteps and is now a detective in her hometown.Around eight months pregnant, she is currently working desk duty, when new evidence is found related to Eve s case.The boot Eve was wearing on the night of her death has been discovered The hope is that with new advancements in forensic science, they will be able to extract some DNA that could finally lead to her killer.The sudden resurgence of interest in the case begins to take its toll on Maggie.She becomes slightly obsessed with it all over again and starts doing some digging of her own Her Father was in charge of the case all those years ago Now, he struggles with dementia and she s wondering if there may have been issues even then.The secrets that come to light in this story, it s a lot Secrets involving multiple characters.I had some serious jaw drop moments while reading this This is How I Lied is a quick, compelling read If you are looking for something to get your mind off real life for a while, look no further This is it I will be honest, there were definitely some elements in this that made me uncomfortable.Specifically, Nola, Eve s sister, is a very disturbing character There are some aspects of her personality that at times, made me want to close this book and never pick it back up again But I needed to know the truth There were also times when I was uncomfortable with Maggie s pregnancy and the risks she was taking caused some anxiety for me.As the story unfolds, however, it becomes clear as to why she feels so compelled.This is a wild story It is dynamic and engaging.Oh, the secrets of a small town You never know what you are going to dig up Thank you so much to the publisher, Park Row Press, for providing me with a copy to read and review.It was a wicked fun read


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    Meh At seven months pregnant, Maggie knows she can t continue her role as an active police detective She s been assigned desk duty digging into a cold case from over twenty years ago The murder of her friend Eve, to be precise In fact, Maggie was the one that found Eve s body all those years ago.Is Maggie capable of maintaining her objectivity Or is she way too close to this crime to help bring it to a close.I ve enjoyed Heather Gundenkauf s books in the past, but this one failed to g Meh At seven months pregnant, Maggie knows she can t continue her role as an active police detective She s been assigned desk duty digging into a cold case from over twenty years ago The murder of her friend Eve, to be precise In fact, Maggie was the one that found Eve s body all those years ago.Is Maggie capable of maintaining her objectivity Or is she way too close to this crime to help bring it to a close.I ve enjoyed Heather Gundenkauf s books in the past, but this one failed to grip me I went along for the ride but never felt vested in the story line or characters Lots of mixed reviews for this book, so fingers crossed you will love it when you dive in A buddy read with Susanne Thank you to NetGalley, Harlequin Park Row for an ARC to read and review


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    4.5 stars, rounded up.Heather Gudenkauf s new thriller, This Is How I Lied , is not to be confused with Riley Sager s The Last Time I Lied or any other thriller with the word lied in it.If you re looking for a slightly creepy thriller with some great twists, one that will have you flipping pages as you race toward the ending, stop You ve found it right here.Twenty five years ago, Maggie s best friend Eve was murdered Maggie and Eve s troubled younger sister Nola found Eve s body Ther 4.5 stars, rounded up.Heather Gudenkauf s new thriller, This Is How I Lied , is not to be confused with Riley Sager s The Last Time I Lied or any other thriller with the word lied in it.If you re looking for a slightly creepy thriller with some great twists, one that will have you flipping pages as you race toward the ending, stop You ve found it right here.Twenty five years ago, Maggie s best friend Eve was murdered Maggie and Eve s troubled younger sister Nola found Eve s body There were a few suspects, including Nola herself, but the police were never able to close the case Maggie s father, who was the town police chief at the time, worked tirelessly to try and solve the murder, but failed Maggie can t help but wonder if the stress of this case led to her father s dementia.New evidence has been found at the scene of Eve s murder, and the new police chief wants to retest all of the old evidence using new technology Maggie, now a detective in her hometown, takes the case despite being seven months pregnant You betcha, I thought of Frances McDormand in Fargo , too She s desperate to figure out what happened, and she hopes she won t find her father missed something crucial.But there are a lot of people with secrets related to Eve, both obvious ones and some who surprise Maggie And there s at least one person who wants Maggie to come to the conclusion they believe and they ll stop at nothing to make sure that happens.This book hooked me from start to finish As usual when I read thrillers I suspect everyone, and there were some people I hoped weren t guilty Heather Gudenkauf threw in lots of twists and they kept my heart racing.One character is pretty creepy and has a bit of a penchant for not quite animal torture It s gross, but you can skim I did I ve always been curious about Gudenkauf s books but never read one before, but if they re all like this Count me in.I was fortunate to be part of the blog tour for this book Thanks to Park Row Books and NetGalley for making an advance copy of the book available in exchange for an unbiased review Check out my list of the best books I read in 2019 at Check out my list of the best books of the decade at all of my reviews at itseithersadnessoreuphoria.blogspot.com.Follow me on Instagram at


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    Gripping, absorbing, and an irresistible page turner THIS IS HOW I LIED by HEATHER GUDENKAUF is a cleverly layered, compelling, dark, and suspenseful psychological thriller that meanders and holds you tight in its grasp without you even realizing it This definitely sets the tone for an immersive and unputdownable read.What I absolutely love about HEATHER GUDENKAUF S storytelling is that she hooks you in almost immediately and then the story makes its way under your skin as the story progresses Gripping, absorbing, and an irresistible page turner THIS IS HOW I LIED by HEATHER GUDENKAUF is a cleverly layered, compelling, dark, and suspenseful psychological thriller that meanders and holds you tight in its grasp without you even realizing it This definitely sets the tone for an immersive and unputdownable read.What I absolutely love about HEATHER GUDENKAUF S storytelling is that she hooks you in almost immediately and then the story makes its way under your skin as the story progresses I find this so intriguing and keeps the suspense high for me Then when you hit the ending it is so unexpected that it leaves you feeling exhilarated in the end.There is a character in this book that is so creepy and disturbing but definitely ups the creep factor to the atmospheric effects of the storyline Love the small town vibe going on too Thank you so much to Edelweiss, Heather Gudenkauf, and Park Row books for the opportunity to read an eARC of this fabulous book There is a reason why I love this author so much.she keeps knocking out fabulous psychological thrillers that have a natural ability to get right under your skin, that s why Read this book


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    Gripping and disturbing Heather Gudenkauf has crafted an addictive, dark and twisted who done it 25 years ago Maggie s best friend Eve was murdered The case was never solved, but now there is a new lead and Maggie Who is now a police officer is on the case Re opening this cold case stirs up many secrets and old feelings,, not everyone is happy about it A tense Mystery with plenty of suspects and secrets So who killed Eve all those years ago Was it the boyfriend The sister The creepy guy Gripping and disturbing Heather Gudenkauf has crafted an addictive, dark and twisted who done it 25 years ago Maggie s best friend Eve was murdered The case was never solved, but now there is a new lead and Maggie Who is now a police officer is on the case Re opening this cold case stirs up many secrets and old feelings,, not everyone is happy about it A tense Mystery with plenty of suspects and secrets So who killed Eve all those years ago Was it the boyfriend The sister The creepy guy from the library The older man Or was it Maggie herself Told from three different perspectives and two different timelines we really are privy to the entire story We get the present day perspective from Maggie and Eve s sister Nola We also get Eve ss perspective leading up to the murder Brittany Presley narrated the audiobook and did a spectacular job with all these character s voices Nola was one of the most creepy and unstable characters I have read in quite some time and the narration made her evendisturbing Miss Presley masterfully gave this creepy character the perfect flat inflection to her voice She also gave Maggie the perfect likable relatable voice I really liked Maggie and felt bad for her waddling around eight months pregnant trying to solve this cold crime that had such a deep personal connection There was a lot going on in the story including some triggers such as animal cruelty and abuse I think it was handled well and it wasn t gratuitous, but if those are triggers for you I do want you to know ahead of time A very well told who done it with a very satisfying and tense ending.This book in emojis Big thank you to Harlequin for my gifted copy of this book All opinions are my own


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    Starts with a bang but sadly fizzles out At around 60% a reveal is made that pissed me off because at this point everything we ve been told is basically a lie There was absolutely no foreshadowing of this It was simply a case of Oh, I forgot I did that How is a reader suppose to believe this Maggie the pregnant police detective cries and vomits a lot which grew very tiresome Nola, the sister of Eve that was murdered, is one of the most bizarre characters I ve read about in a while and no Starts with a bang but sadly fizzles out At around 60% a reveal is made that pissed me off because at this point everything we ve been told is basically a lie There was absolutely no foreshadowing of this It was simply a case of Oh, I forgot I did that How is a reader suppose to believe this Maggie the pregnant police detective cries and vomits a lot which grew very tiresome Nola, the sister of Eve that was murdered, is one of the most bizarre characters I ve read about in a while and not in a good way I ve been struggling to find my reading mojo lately so it s probably me and not this book Most of my Goodreads friends loved this one 2.5 stars


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    3.25 stars A mystery book about a 25 year old unsolved murder New evidence has been discovered that leads to reopening the case The current lead detective on the case was actually the one who originally found the body and was the victims best friend Will she be able to be objective She begins by pulling all the case files and evidence previously collected The case will make her reevaluate several people in her small town, as well as herself.This was a slower, but constant paced book The st 3.25 stars A mystery book about a 25 year old unsolved murder New evidence has been discovered that leads to reopening the case The current lead detective on the case was actually the one who originally found the body and was the victims best friend Will she be able to be objective She begins by pulling all the case files and evidence previously collected The case will make her reevaluate several people in her small town, as well as herself.This was a slower, but constant paced book The story telling was done well However it failed to grip me with suspense The twists felt anticlimactic as a result, as well as the ending I think there arehigher ratings for this than my own I may have too high expectations However, I think it s fair to be somewhat disappointed when a book is describe as suspenseful but that isn t delivered Thank you to HarperCollins via Edelweiss for the digital review copy


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    Yet another mystery book where author tries to make her characters interesting and secretive and fails to do it Why I picked up this book There was a comment on this book based in a small town where secrets are still alive and you know how much i like books set in small town So yes I decided to read it.REVIEW Why I disliked this book Poor character development now this is the thing I disliked the most about this book All the characters are horribly portrayed Maggie ,the haun Yet another mystery book where author tries to make her characters interesting and secretive and fails to do it Why I picked up this book There was a comment on this book based in a small town where secrets are still alive and you know how much i like books set in small town So yes I decided to read it.REVIEW Why I disliked this book Poor character development now this is the thing I disliked the most about this book All the characters are horribly portrayed Maggie ,the haunted cop I literally just don t care what she thinks or do in the entire story, the actions she performed at the end will make you wanna kill her Eve,the tragic victim the only sensible character in the book though Nola,the psychopath let s take a moment to appreciate how author miserably failed to portray her charactershe is too much psychopath like due diligence had been made to make her interesting Obvious turn of events any red herring curveballs thrown at readers were far too obvious repetitive some facts and info provided to readers were useless and repetitive Unsatisfying ending personally I wantedThe end seem incomplete to me TRIGGER WARNINGThis book feature some uncomfortable and unnerving events like abusive relationship absent parenting animal torture alluded torture bullying death of parents gaslighting infertility loss of pregnancies sexism assault rapeWhy I gave it 3 stars Setting in small town where past is still alive Scenic description the way author described the town.omg you will instantly fall in love with it.the town itself holds the power to draw you towards the storyIt was a page turner, because you want to know the truth, no matter how obvious is this


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