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In My Skin ✭ In My Skin Books ✯ Author Kate Holden – Thomashillier.co.uk Called Quite simply in a class of its own the work of a stunningly talented writer who both graces and surpasses her material Guardian , this is the frank, harrowing, and true story of one young woman Called Quite simply in a class of its own the work of a In My eBook · stunningly talented writer who both graces and surpasses her material Guardian , this is the frank, harrowing, and true story of one young woman s descent into heroin addiction and prostitution and the long, arduous struggle to redeem her life that made her stronger A shy, bookish college graduate from a solid middle class home, Kate Holden was uncertain of her way in life When she decided to try her first hit of heroin as a one time adventure with friends, she did not anticipate that the drug would take over She lost her job and apartment and stole from her family Desperation drove her first to offer her body on the streets and then in high class brothels, where she discovered hidden strengths as well as parts of herself that frightened her With the acceptance and unyielding love of a family that never abandoned her, Kate Holden ultimately defeated the drug and left her netherworld behindAbout the Author Kate Holden was born inand graduated from the University of Melbourne with an honors degree in classics and literature She won the Judy Duffy Award for literary excellence for a draft manuscript of this book She lives in Melbourne and is working on a novel.

    Paperback Ù In My Skin MOBI ↠ In My eBook · addiction and prostitution and the long, arduous struggle to redeem her life that made her stronger A shy, bookish college graduate from a solid middle class home, Kate Holden was uncertain of her way in life When she decided to try her first hit of heroin as a one time adventure with friends, she did not anticipate that the drug would take over She lost her job and apartment and stole from her family Desperation drove her first to offer her body on the streets and then in high class brothels, where she discovered hidden strengths as well as parts of herself that frightened her With the acceptance and unyielding love of a family that never abandoned her, Kate Holden ultimately defeated the drug and left her netherworld behindAbout the Author Kate Holden was born inand graduated from the University of Melbourne with an honors degree in classics and literature She won the Judy Duffy Award for literary excellence for a draft manuscript of this book She lives in Melbourne and is working on a novel."/>
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  • In My Skin
  • Kate Holden
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  • 12 March 2017

About the Author: Kate Holden

Kate Holden was born in Melbourne in She completed an Honours degree In My eBook · in classics and literature at the University of Melbourne and a graduate diploma in professional writing and editing In My Skin A Memoir is her first book.



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  1. Petra-X Petra-X says:

    There aren t many books by middle class, highly literate university graduates on being drug addicted streetwalkers, this may be unique.The author becomes addicted to heroin by accident, just trying it and loving it She eventually descends through all the levels of hell to being thrown out of her home and walking the streets to sell sex enough to get money for drugs She describes all this in a dispassionate voice, but an involved one all the same She doesn t beg for for our sympathy at her pli There aren t many books by middle class, highly literate university graduates on being drug addicted streetwalkers, this may be unique.The author becomes addicted to heroin by accident, just trying it and loving it She eventually descends through all the levels of hell to being thrown out of her home and walking the streets to sell sex enough to get money for drugs She describes all this in a dispassionate voice, but an involved one all the same She doesn t beg for for our sympathy at her plight but treats her street walking as she might the lowliest entry into any profession Her description of sex is graphic and interesting whether she is talking about positions requested or services offered It is pitiful the amount of money a sex worker brings in and the fear of police and violent clients an ever present danger She does, at times, get caught by both At home, a room with scarcely any furniture her boyfriend waits for her to bring money He lives off her earnings but isn t a pimp, simply unemployable and he says he loves her and she thinks she loves him too.She makes progress in her career and lands a job in a brothel She might have to hand over half her money but she has clean sheets, a shower, and the protection of the house and it s staff around her She is happy and concentrates on being the best prostitute she can, whether it is by means of her looks she is a tall, extremely good looking woman , clothes, sexual services or conversation She covers her heroin addiction from the madam and works as hard as she can just to spend all her money on drugs for her boyfriend and herself It is heart breaking, but not for her, she hasn t got there yet.Her parents are supportive throughout, get her in rehab programmes, on methodone, tough love, easy love, acceptance, whatever it takes But although she is grateful she is sunk so deep into the lifestyle nothing can help her.A move to another brothel, aupmarket one gives her a littlemoney and she tries to help herself She moves into a nicer apartment with a garden, and attempts, unsuccessfully, to separate herself from her boyfriend who ultimately will kill himself She is very much in control of her thoughts, very keen on advancing in her career to the point of thinking she might like to be a madam herself but doesn t see life in the clear light of day but only through the soft, warm fuzzy edge of heroin, not that she is aware of that.Something happens A switch clicks Heroin is in short supply and she thinks maybe she could go one day without it Maybe twoShe changes and decides to stop the drugs and slowly, slowly weans herself off methodone as well as heroin She returns home to her parents to live and to save money for a trip to Europe and the day after she is completely clean, that s it A new life, flying far from St Kilda s backstreets in Australia to Paris and thence to Italy.Home again after an extended stay and a normal love affair, she becomes a writer, a successful one, and remains non judgemental and non regretful about her life.Others have seen this book as disgusting, that she treats prostitution so normally and discusses the details of the sex Not just working sex, but how some clients do turn her on, and some, told in excruciating detail turn her off Why is this disgusting Why is it not interesting instead I think it is.I also think anyone with access to the internet who says they ve never viewed porn is either telling porkies or very, very unusual We are all interested in sex, it s what s done in the dark and without witnesses, just an act kept secret by those involved We all know that everyone doesor less the same things but we still like to see it, hear it and read about it That s just human nature This book was a brilliant read At the other end of prostitution, the highest end where the whores even become tv celebrities and are called girlfriends is Bunny Tales, another brilliant, if bitter read by one of Hefner s harem at the same time as Kendra and Holly were screwing the old man for money And probably for the same reason Both the authors were university graduates in disciplines that need good writing English and Law But the author of Bunny Tales would never admit even to herself that she was a whore, self delusion coloured every word she worte, whereas Kate Holden was searingly honest about herself, and therefore a greater joy to read She s a great girl, the author, and now a successful writer I wish her all the best in life Quote from one whore to another in the brothelIf you pull your g string higher, it makes your legs look longerShows off your stretch marksAs if I have stretch marks, I have textureD

  2. Buggy Buggy says:

    Opening LineWhat do I remember about being a prostitute In My Skin is the harrowing true story of Kate Holden an average, middle class university girl from the Melbourne Australia suburbs who on a whim decides to give heroin a try We then follow Kate on a five year journey into hell as she slides into the horrors of addiction and then out of desperation prostitution to fund her growing habit This is a candid, gripping, graphic and well written story, although not entirely what I was ex Opening LineWhat do I remember about being a prostitute In My Skin is the harrowing true story of Kate Holden an average, middle class university girl from the Melbourne Australia suburbs who on a whim decides to give heroin a try We then follow Kate on a five year journey into hell as she slides into the horrors of addiction and then out of desperation prostitution to fund her growing habit This is a candid, gripping, graphic and well written story, although not entirely what I was expecting from a drug memoir Ultimately it sof a peek into the secret world of prostitution and high class brothels then anything else Yes the heroin is always present but it becomes almost a nagging afterthought as Kate aka Lucy spends a majority of the book giving us an unflinching look into everything you didn t know you wanted to know about prostitution Lucy makes no excuses for her choices however and her accounts are often told with an odd sort of pride As she describes how good she gets at her job, how in demand she becomes With a stable full of regular Johns, men willing to wait hours for her, buying gifts and professing their love Of course there are still the rough tricks, the fights with the other girls and the slow nights when she hasn t made enough money for her next fix or to pay off her dealer or catch up on the rent And then there s the abuse to her body frankly I wondered how she could go on in this lifestyle for years without, well, dieing In fact she s not even getting high any, now its just matter of trying to stave off the sickness she s only ever one step ahead of Because she can t work if she s dope sick and she can t buy drugs if she can t work It s a vicious never ending, insane cycle.I found it interesting how Kate started on the streets and worked her way up to the brothels, almost like a right of passage After losing her job for stealing and a couple of failed attempts at rehab Kate Lucy is desperate for cash she s now also supporting her deadbeat boyfriend so she starts working for her dealer pimp Walking the streets night after night, in an endless loop of nameless, faceless grunting men, its almost too easy Blowjobs in cars, hotels that rent by the hour anything for some cash, to get that next hit.Throughout everything Kate s family stand by her, even at her worst she still visits for the occasional Sunday dinner Emotionally they re no longer invested, they ve had to let her go, unable to bare the lies, disappointments or thievery any longer but they re still always there for her Still hoping she will come back to them, maybe onetrip to rehab, maybe a methadone program They never admit to knowing how she s supporting herself but don t interfere either Thankfully there is a happy ending to this story but honestly I don t know how one could ever live a normal life again after this kind of interruption I do wish this author the best though and hope to readfrom her in the future because she has a real gift.297jb4

  3. PattyMacDotComma PattyMacDotComma says:

    Update 2016 Again, I ve just been reminded of this, one of my all time favourite books, which I still don t have a copy of But I m also reminded that I d like to add a link to another favourite, also Aussie, also well written and also not for the faint hearted, Candy by Luke Davies And as I recall, both take place in and around Melbourne, but I ll have to check that Original reviewThis one has been a favourite since I read it years ago, and I ve given my copy away I wasn t writing Update 2016 Again, I ve just been reminded of this, one of my all time favourite books, which I still don t have a copy of But I m also reminded that I d like to add a link to another favourite, also Aussie, also well written and also not for the faint hearted, Candy by Luke Davies And as I recall, both take place in and around Melbourne, but I ll have to check that Original reviewThis one has been a favourite since I read it years ago, and I ve given my copy away I wasn t writing reviews back then, but something reminded me of it today, and I thought I must try to remember why I loved it so much.The contrast of this obviously well educated girl and her seedy life as a heroin addict and hooker is almost too great to be believed But it s true I will have to read it again, borrow it back , but suffice to say that she admits there was almost no depth to which she would not sink to get the drugs she needed, and she fleeced her parents and anyone she could to get money.I would say unashamedly fleeced , but I think she was ashamed, at least of how she would purposely go back home to her parents and pretend she intended to get straight, only to take advantage of the home comforts and then go back out on the streets with whatever money she d managed to finagle I think she did pretend to herself a bit that maybe she really would clean up, but than it didn t happen.Her attitude towards the brothel she worked in is intriguing I remember she came to consider her relationships with clients almost as a community service She s quite graphically descriptive about the men, their looks, smells, habits, and kinks, to the point that I would think EWWW, how could you But she says something along the lines of if she didn t show them she cared, who would Where else could they turn for affection And who knows how many marriages she might have saved It is fascinating and so well written that it s compulsive reading She is now clean well, as far as I know and has appeared on the ABC s Book Show and other programs and is an intelligent, attractive young woman not the sort of person you d expect would ever have been at the bottom of the Melbourne social ladder I am so glad she climbed back up and started writing There s plenty about her on her website

  4. Sequoia Redd Sequoia Redd says:

    Ever pick up a book that happens to be exactly where you re at Like literally where you re at In My Skin is a memoir written by university graduate, Kate Holden, about heroin addiction and sex work in Melbourne, Australia Kate started working on the streets of St Kilda and then moves onto the legal brothel system to support her habit I picked up my copy in a bookstore somewhere in Melbourne and could not put it down and then realized that she worked in the same brothel that I was working in Ever pick up a book that happens to be exactly where you re at Like literally where you re at In My Skin is a memoir written by university graduate, Kate Holden, about heroin addiction and sex work in Melbourne, Australia Kate started working on the streets of St Kilda and then moves onto the legal brothel system to support her habit I picked up my copy in a bookstore somewhere in Melbourne and could not put it down and then realized that she worked in the same brothel that I was working in It was entertaining to read about her adventures and misadventures with sex work and her battle with addiction particularly because its kind of what I m going through right now Whilst I have never shot up heroin I have sex addiction issues and I love to feel good This year has been about finding balance.Kate has a lovely way with words and I related alot to the way she processes and articulates her experiences Part of me was a little frustrated initially because she is a middle class girl that went to university, has parents that care and got a lot of support through her problems and it seems from reading her memoir like there is nothing inherently wrong with her life However, these are the kinds of stories that speak to people in the mainstream and humanize folks that are sex workers or have drug addictions Most of the other reviews you ll read about this book harp on and on about how her humanity shines out through her story Yes, the fact that sex workers and drug addicts are living breathing humans is still a novel concept to some people which makes books like these semi invaluable.Kate s story begins in her childhood through to her university years, she outlines some of her early romances and brushes with drugs and alcohol We learn that Kate is shy but eager to fit in with her peers and when one day her boyfriend and group of friends start to do heroin, she wants in on their big secret Her description of heroin use is poetic She starts using pretty excessively and then the downward spiral begins She steals from her boss and her family, gets fired and turns to sex work to continue to support her habit.Kate s foray into sex work begins on the streets of St Kilda where we follow her into the backseats and alleys with strangers She gets arrested and then someone approaches her about working in a brothel Kate works in three different brothels around Melbourne and ends up at Il Fiore I felt that Kate s portrayal of sex work was a pretty acurate one I have an odd habit when I can t decide if I want to buy a book or not, I ll randomly flip to a passage and if it speaks to me then I get it The passage that sold me on buying this book was Control I leanred then how much I had Control, not to squeal when a man grabbed my breast hard enough to make it twinge Control to keep my legs stretched in the air even when they were trembling Control to brace against pounding from behind as my face mashed into the pillow and my arms shuddered and my spine jarred with every thrust Control not to gag at a slimy tongue in my mouth, burrowing wetly into my ear, licking at my throat.Control not to twitch when a fingernail suddenly dug into my anus, when a scock scraped into my vagina against burning skin and I felt my face go pale with pain Not to laugh when a man grunted, You re the best, you re the best, I ve nver met anyone like you, and then screwed up his face and howled with orgasm and barely looked me in the eye a minute later Control to stay polite, to stay charming, to go on feeding compliments, to not spit out my contempt Control to be the best working girl I could be.Sobriety and sex work are not often seen as two elements that go together We re all familiar with the drunk coked up drugged out stripper, hooker, porn star stereotypes that seem to abound outside of this industry For me personally sex work used to be a reason to stay sober, be responsible and take care of myself, things that didn t normally come easy to me became regimented rules I would stick by justifying it because I could makemoney if I was sober and healthy This past year has been a bit different and because I ve let my own life out of balance by trusting people I wasn t entirely comfortable with because I was acting out of greed I ve always wanted a home and brothel work for me was almost a way to get there but because I couldn t keep grounded things didn t quite work out as planned.Working in brothels is a tough job Whores are warriors whether we admit it or not and sometimes its a really hard struggle to fight for what you want, to fight for survival, to fight for a home.My hat goes off to Kate for having the bravery to write her memoirs in graphic detail the way she did Reading her experiences have helped me to try and articulate some of my own some day.Everyone is addicted to something and everyone goes a little crazy sometimes Addiction is simply a battle with the demons within and if you re not careful it can take over your whole life

  5. Bec Bec says:

    This review has been hidden because it contains spoilers To view it, click here The first book for our office Book Club and what a way to start All of the reviews on the cover made this sound like it was a well written memoir Our whole book club would beg to disagree.Kate Holden glosses over so much of her addiction While she makes some attempt to describe life as a working girl, it is a very santised and glamourised version of what I would guess to be the truth Reading between the lines there must have been quite a few customer s who were threatening, or outright a The first book for our office Book Club and what a way to start All of the reviews on the cover made this sound like it was a well written memoir Our whole book club would beg to disagree.Kate Holden glosses over so much of her addiction While she makes some attempt to describe life as a working girl, it is a very santised and glamourised version of what I would guess to be the truth Reading between the lines there must have been quite a few customer s who were threatening, or outright abusive Not that I wanted to read about those encounters, but somereferences to theserealistic encounters would have been appreciated Instead we are left with her ego I was a princess in my realm and men couldn t get enough of me They waited hours for my company and I couldn t even remember their names It seems as though the author is deluding herself quite a bit She talks about not judging anyone I do not like to judge others I know now that everyone has their secrets when we get page upon page of judgements about the other working girls in the brothels she worked in Her immense ego on display through whole sections when she lords her education over the other women who are her competitors In the end I felt cheated of the real story She runs through a laundry list of clients, deals, dealers, and the ordeal she puts her family through, then is suddenly clean abracadabra I m clean I would have liked to have seenof that it seems that this would be where the real meat of the story is The tale of how she managed to take her life back from the addiction and prostitution The third act of the book is glossed over in less than 50 pages.There was little of the character I could relate to, I felt incredibly sad and sorry for her family, and sorrier still that she has subjected her family to a memoir of what must surely be some of the lowest times of their lives I don t recommend this book at all, to anyone

  6. Rachel Rachel says:

    Story of a middle class Australian girl who gets addicted to heroin and turns to legal prostitution It was really interesting to see what drug addiction is like in a country where they have social services as opposed to the US She had a lotresources at her disposal Of course it still took her a long time to quit for all the garden variety reasons As far as the prostitution part, she tries to play the Carol Queen angle, i.e prostitution empowers women rather than exploits them I h Story of a middle class Australian girl who gets addicted to heroin and turns to legal prostitution It was really interesting to see what drug addiction is like in a country where they have social services as opposed to the US She had a lotresources at her disposal Of course it still took her a long time to quit for all the garden variety reasons As far as the prostitution part, she tries to play the Carol Queen angle, i.e prostitution empowers women rather than exploits them I have no problem with this argument in general but it is a lot harder to buy it from someone who turns to prostitution to support a drug habit Seemedlike a rationalization coping mechanism

  7. Courtney Courtney says:

    The only thing that separates this from all the other sex worker memoirs is that Holden is an ok writer, whereas the others tend to hope they ll sell books based on serious shock factor Other than that, this book was one big vanity indulgence It s unbelievable how conceited this woman is She s so proud of everything about herself, she s even proud to begin taking heroin, proud to have wandered the St Kilda streets every night giving blowjobs to unprotected penises of cab drivers She finds he The only thing that separates this from all the other sex worker memoirs is that Holden is an ok writer, whereas the others tend to hope they ll sell books based on serious shock factor Other than that, this book was one big vanity indulgence It s unbelievable how conceited this woman is She s so proud of everything about herself, she s even proud to begin taking heroin, proud to have wandered the St Kilda streets every night giving blowjobs to unprotected penises of cab drivers She finds herself so sexy she can barely resist rubbing her boobs as she watches her heroin ravaged body in the mirror I just couldn t relate to this at all, I d be so ashamed and revolted at the state I was in if I was accepting meagre amounts of cash for anal sex to fund an out of control drug addiction while my loving, decent parents sat by and watched, devastated All I could glean from the book was that Holden s constantly obsessing over trying to be cool and has some messed up ideas about what that entails If I had to read anythingabout how intelligent, beautiful and powerful she was I was gonna hurl A powerful temptress disgusting junkie, rolled into one How irresistable Got one up on all the other girls because you went to uni to complete a bullshit degree Too good to be a prostitute in a skanky, corrupt brothel Sure, keep telling yourself that Writing this ego tripping author off altogether Oh also, beautiful Really I would say plain at best Get over yourself for Christ sake

  8. Eva Leger Eva Leger says:

    This was hard to get into for me a few times in the beginning but it s an awesome book It s about a woman who led a fairly charmed life up until she started using heroin and became addicted She s very detailed which is one of the things I like about this book and she explains heroin addiction very well, the ins and outs, the whole experience She eventually becomes a prostitute call girl and her life goes progressively downhill Her family is there for her, along withfriends than most ad This was hard to get into for me a few times in the beginning but it s an awesome book It s about a woman who led a fairly charmed life up until she started using heroin and became addicted She s very detailed which is one of the things I like about this book and she explains heroin addiction very well, the ins and outs, the whole experience She eventually becomes a prostitute call girl and her life goes progressively downhill Her family is there for her, along withfriends than most addicts keep along the way and she still continues This is a great book for anyone who really wants to see the truth of heroin addiction almost everything and not just what an author thinks would make a good book Definitely recommended but keep in mind that there is a lot of talk about sex, everything regarding sex inside I would suggest only strong recovering addicts read there are many, many points where Ms Holden talks about feelings and things of that nature that might be hard for a newly recovering addict to read

  9. Addicted to Books Addicted to Books says:

    5 beautiful unapologetic about her past accept life in all its different kinds of glory stars This was a very different read Wow Kate Holden, I am really impressed with your writing and the prose was sometimes hauntingly beautiful I love reading memoirs and I have read all kinds of memoirs but I have only reviewed the few I like on GR Kate Holden is not holding back nor does she feel she needs to add in ugly stuff empowering the book so that the reader can feel pseudo sorry for her Nor did 5 beautiful unapologetic about her past accept life in all its different kinds of glory stars This was a very different read Wow Kate Holden, I am really impressed with your writing and the prose was sometimes hauntingly beautiful I love reading memoirs and I have read all kinds of memoirs but I have only reviewed the few I like on GR Kate Holden is not holding back nor does she feel she needs to add in ugly stuff empowering the book so that the reader can feel pseudo sorry for her Nor did she manipulate her life experiences into the words she feels an average reader can appreciate She gives to us as it was in her life and how she saw it I clearly got that from her memoir I know a lot of readers would expect the gory details of how she is sorry for prostituting herself and expect her to be apologetic and how she hated being a prostitute R the details about the filth that comes with drug addiction Well, she does none of that She doesn t apologize and she doesn t glorify anything either She gave it honestly I hardly see such honesty in such memoirs Nothing whiny No complaints about other people No blaming of other people No judgements She didn t even structure this in a way to gain mass appeal I think sheor less did this to understand herself The 5 stars for her brutal honesty Thank you Kate for bringing your strength into the memoir and for giving me such an enriching reading experience There were moments when my toes curled in and there were times I teared up for you but I knew the strength of your spirit will see you through and I was cheering you on page after page The books begins with Kate s childhood, being shy and she was also the studious type who did well in school and a lotwas expected of her She graduated with a degree in English and was exploring herself in the arts scene and her sexual awakenings And so begins her plunge into the world of heroin An ex boyfriend of her introduced her into the world heroin and she soon was addicted She shows us how low sank to get drugs into the system She failed at rehab only plunge right back into addiction She lied and manipulated everyone around her She begins stealing from the bookshops she worked at since she was a student and is fired All she ever wanted was heroin was secondary She hurt everyone in the process But her family stayed with her throughout supporting her in every way She gives it as it is She never pities anyone or even herself Then she begins her world into street prostitution and here I really saw her desperation for money She would have unprotected sex if she is really desperate for the night She sank to the lowest level she could during these times I felt so bad and I thought to myself what a life she choose She was treated badly and men bargaining for lower prices She meets Boris who takes good care of her but she screws that up because she knows things are getting better for her but she sabotages herself I think she does not want anything to get better for her and she just wants her heroin.Desperation knows no boundaries She then begins working at brothels and begin to support her boyfriend, Robbie It is here she finds out that she sometimes enjoys working as a prostitute She forms friendships and the treatment sometimes is a lot better She talks about men in all shapes and sizes and how flesh is just flesh and how she enjoys it sometimes when they are not rough and take the time to pleasure her too She also states how Heroin also has numbed her feelings and her libido But she works at it She works very hard at being a prostitute and to fund her drug habit and her boyfriend She talk about the tricks of the trade and how she managed her job She talks about the rough treatment from men and she also talks about the bond she forms with some of them AT times she would fancy herself in love with someone of them In between these details, it struck me how much Kate was looking for human connection and she couldn t separate affections and sex There are plenty stories of her customers here But she revels in her experiences and she was happy to be of such a service to men I saw sexuality from a completely different view point here She enjoyed the many aspects of it and seemed to have excelled at it She clearly states what she enjoyed her prostitution days in many ways Like I mentioned before, people would have beensympathetic had she said she hated her prostitution days She found the strength to survive it all with her sanity and dignity in tact I loved the way she told her story I understood her and at times though I wanted to hug her But I never pitied or felt sorry for her I marvelled at her ability with cope with everything and being so strong I flinched at the parts when she described how the men were rough her body She slowly starts to want to change her life and makes the effort to start switching over to methadone and over 2 years she kicks the habit I highly recommend this book and I will look out for books by Kate Thank you for the book Kate

  10. Daren Daren says:

    This was an interesting read to hear the thoughts of a habitual heroin user, and prostitute I am not convinced the author is a particularly likeable person, as she comes across as having a high opinion of herself, despite the lows she reached This isn t however a book looking for pity, and tried to give an understanding of her decisions, although for me it stops short of providing that I would even go so far as to say she shows a lot of pride in her decisions, and pride in performing her jo This was an interesting read to hear the thoughts of a habitual heroin user, and prostitute I am not convinced the author is a particularly likeable person, as she comes across as having a high opinion of herself, despite the lows she reached This isn t however a book looking for pity, and tried to give an understanding of her decisions, although for me it stops short of providing that I would even go so far as to say she shows a lot of pride in her decisions, and pride in performing her job well.Set in Melbourne, mostly in St Kilda, it is far from a fantasy, which adds a familiarity to the settings Not that I know Melbourne well, but I have been there three or four times, and stayed in St Kilda few times Certainly a sad read at times her inability to make a conscious decision to stop taking heroin given all the assistance and opportunities, she repeatedly states that she wasn t ready, or didn t really want to stop until she did , and the terrible situation she put her family especially her parents through show the self centred way drug users live You can t help but havesympathy for her family than for the author herself, with the lies, disappointments and thievery they were party to.Prostitution was really the means to earn the money to support her drug addiction, and those of her loser boyfriends boyfriends who never had jobs and were solely supported by her I can t understand the appeal of her pathetic boyfriends but then, I don t understand many of the motivations in the story told.The author certainly didn t shy from sharing details, with page after page of detail on her clients, the way the brothels work, and the interactions with the other girls If anything, she probably spends too many pages recounting the customers and the services she provided, as there is a point where is stops being interesting and becomes a bit desensitising I think the strangest aspect of the book however is how she got clean it was really quite an anticlimax how she just made the decision helped a little by loser boyfriend breaking into her room and stealing her stash I suppose the ease of breaking the cycle reinforces her suggestion that previously she wasn t ready to give up heroin, and that finally the time was right for her.Ultimately the book is polarising, as the reviews show People either love it for its rawness and honesty, or they dislike it and consider it dishonest, and glorifying the heroin and prostitution I fell in the middle, and return to my original comment and interesting read, which did little to endear met to the author.3 stars

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